First post

I am having a hard time losing weight. This blog is going to document my journey to realizing a healthier me.

To summarize my current situation:

I graduated from nursing school about a week and a half ago. The last year has been about clinicals and homework and papers and definitely NOT about my health. The result of this neglect is an extra four very pesky pounds. This is on top of the extra six pounds or so I was carrying around to begin with.

The other issue is my out of control eating habits. I wake up in the morning and eat well. I have a yogurt with fruit and wheat germ or a bowl of cereal with sliced strawberries. I feel full after this meal. It only lasts for a couple of hours though. I still feel in charge though at this point and normally have some kind of snack...almonds and soy milk, cereal bar or hummus and carrots. Lunch can be pretty healthy normally as long as I am not starving. I normally eat a half a sandwich with one slice of lunchmeat, half a slice of cheese, lettuce, tomato, mustard. With this I have a yogurt, rice cakes, and a banana.

Then it starts. About 2:30 or so in the afternoon I start wanting to snack...BAD. And it is not always "bad" food. Rice cakes maybe or fruit...but sometimes it is not so healthful...chocolate, giant bowls of cereal, diet coke, cake, cookies. Anything sweet and on hand. Alot of times I gorge myself and feel miserable.

Then it is time to make dinner for my family. And of course I am not hungry because I just went and ate about 500 calories. But I still eat dinner with my family. Our dinners always have a protein and starch and a veggie. However, some meals are definitely higher in calories than others.

Oh, and it should be noted that I am done with school and feeling stress now due to job searching and preparing to take my boards. I find that I am even more inclined to binge in the afternoon if I am feeling emotional...fearful, anxious....even really happy (I know weird, right?).

Exercise. That is a whole other story. I tend to exercise in spurts. Which is great when I am exercising, but not so great when I am on hiatus. My list of excuses for not exercising:
1. Time
2. Motivation
3. Weather (too cold, too rainy)

So, that about sums up where I am. I plan to post at least a sentence or two every night to update my status.

NOT AFRAID TO LOSE!